Unbearable Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a dreary weekday morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a intense sensation erupted behind my right eye. This was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unrelenting.

The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: aura in the morning, early twinges on the commute, full-on agony in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor finally referred me to a specialist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headaches.

This condition typically start with severe pain behind a single eye that lasts for several hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically start with abrupt, excruciating agony around one eye that peaks within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper rated the pain at 9.7 10, higher than broken bones or pancreatitis. Another found a significant percentage of cluster patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through her youth. Drinking in her teens, similar to many causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the failure to plan life around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The first account of headache originates from the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who attacked his sufferers' heads.

Ancient healing texts propose bizarre remedies for what some observers would classify as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.

Cluster headaches were only officially classified by international medical committees in 1988. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in treating the condition explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a research project for which they had triggered cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, featured in a major journal, showed activation of the a brain region, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such advances, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he had four operations before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor researched his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary headache conditions, such as migraine, before diagnosing cluster headaches. A thorough patient history is essential: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to specialist clinics. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, 78, has experienced the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dental professionals misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a support group, it was she who replied. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.

National guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include verapamil, which reportedly soothes the attacks of some people.

But consultant specialists argue the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle determines the approach.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. More prolonged or more severe periods require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes combined with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an injection into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve activity.

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